I wanna get marry

To be honest, I had delete a lot of my previous post..
Why? because when I read them all again, I can feel that I am so immature.
From the way I start writing until the end.
the previous post I felt the same too.
But I don't have the gut to delete it as...yeah, as it is about my live..
I guess this post might be the same when I read it back soon.-_-"
Hm..maybe I just not really good at writing.
Well, just not talk about that.
It is not the main point by the way.

Here is what going on my mind lately.
Memories which to me was not really good memories hunted me back.
I felt so bad, and I am really angry at myself.
It is like, Why would you do that??Are you out of your mind??
Yes, I do. The desire of wanting to experience new thing led me to many bad things.
Teenage stage is like the peak of your curiosity which may lead to 'disaster' if you just can't control yourself.
And that is what happened to me.
Well, I don't wanna tell details about it.
But just bare in mind that I done crazy stuff in the past.

Hm..but past is the past.
I don't have the time machine to turn back the time and do good thing.
What I have now is only the future.
Which I believe everyone will love to have a bright future, so do me.

So whats all about have the connection with the tittle post?
Well, it does not really have the connection..lol
It is just I felt lonely, and I would love to have someone whom I can take care of.
Someone whom also will take care of me and bring me laughter in my live,
whom which always can remind me to do good things and lead me went I astray.
Whom which is 'halal' for me and that is a husband.

to be continued..
xoxo